so much more from a clueless one, all i want to do is scream-

goodbye and hello

2008-06-23T08:11:01Z

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew

okay.
not so emo lah.
LOL :D

yeah
its BYE to livejournal.
hi wordpress (:

relink please :D

http://screamcityy.wordpress.com

(yeah. i know. why double Ys right? cause someone took screamcity and deleted her/his blog but not the user. argh. like WHY?!)
):

scream_city @ 2008-06-23T00:37:00

2008-06-22T17:35:49Z

sunday! (:
okay, it WAS sunday 37 minutes ago.
:D

what a week.
had the POP on sat, yesterday morning.
so the alumni was like, running about non stop on cellphones or in the hall randomly moving about.
videos!
i took the whole video in like, one camera.
and i had a few more other angle videos from people at the top like helmi and all, real great.
so i did all the close up videos, yup (:
kudos to shimin & jackson for making the graduates video, it was pretty good (:

afternoon was church :D
sermon was really practical somehow, cause it applied to everyone, really, without fail.
you know, i always blindly use words like "wah lao" and "oh my gosh" and "bugger".
but now, i really learn that i shouldn't after i learnt the true meaning of all these words from today's sermon.
i can scowl inside using words like "OH MY GOD", but guess what, really, i have been using it.
cause words like "oh my gosh" and "oh my goodness", really derived from "oh my god",
the meaning was really the same when i shouted those 3 words, just that the words are different.

sometimes i even use stuff like 'bloody good', and it may be just some lingo.
maybe if i was allowed to, i would really use the words "f****ing good'.
and guess what?
i had just used 'bloody good' as a supposedly 'replacement', when really, inside i was scolding the.. yeah.

i really think that sometimes i just use words cause i heard others use it.
words like "retard", and blah blah blah.
and i didn't even know the meaning of those words when i use it lah!
so guess what, i shouldnt even be using words which I know that I don't even know the meaning of.
especially if they are quite crude, rude and stuff.

lol :D
anyway, hit m'sia today with cheryl and jasper.
it was kind of a last minute thing 3 person thing, since elaine and meiyan couldn't join us.
yeah, the food was good, the movie was good, the even more food was good, and buying stuff was good!
(:
thank God for great flow for customs too.
i mean, you would have thought it would be totally jammed because of the return of kids for school tmr.
(:
but everything was great! yeah
:D

wish i had my camera.
or my phone camera, ahhh.

):

haha.
anyway.
all the best to those having school tmr!
work hard :D

i just thought of something.
sometimes we just put so much expectations on others,
that we forget that God is just really so much more accepting than that.
hmmm.

to randy & jielong:
God has great plans for you yeah!
no matter what you think of for the future, God will be THERE with YOU.
(:

cheryl's rushing out some project work thingy.
and she's like on page 20 and she still thinks its not enough, like. er.
:/

my nose and eye isn't being very nice.
right eye is swelling for no reason and the right side of nose is super duper itchy.
o_o

just saw something i really liked.
its time for a new change! (:

scream_city @ 2008-06-20T20:58:00

2008-06-20T22:17:44Z

i am like super exhausted o_o
wayyyyyyy tired, and to think i didn't even do that much running about the whole day.
more of like moving sec 1s, play through pieces a lot.
i didn't even go through the parade lah. LOL
and i'm not even doing the I/C jobs which were like o_o cause everyone was running about ten times more.
okay, and maybe its due to the fact that the alumni was like, practically up all night.
jordan took like what, 3 red bulls?

applause for the sec 1s from all three schools.
first time they played together for tomorrow's performance, but its quite stable already.
nice trumpet solo, nice drum solo (:

navigations keeps going through my head.
and i love it where there's really obvious changes of keys from the minor to major and minor again.
way beautiful.

POP tomorrow!
get rest, all you members from 5 bands :D
yeah, 5.
chaos tomorrow.

its 9pm.
i dont care, i'm going to sleep.
goodnight (:

scream_city @ 2008-06-18T11:40:00

2008-06-19T02:38:15Z

i'm pretty sure this would make the OST for anything like A Walk To Remember,
perhaps after Music & Lyrics and Someday You'll Know.

Same storyline, good instrumental, good transition chords, good speed, and lyrics don't make you cringe and internally just scream EWW.

Tonight
I remember the times we spent together
On those drives
We had a million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New York
Everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
Tonight

I remember the days we spent together
Were not enough
And I used to feel like dreamin'
Except we always woke up
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you, I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I remember the time you told me
About when you were eight
And all those things you said that night
That just couldn't wait

I remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
And stayed out way too late

I remember the time you sat and told me
About your Jesus
And how not to look back
Even if no one believes us
When it hurts so bad
Sometimes not having you here
I sing

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you, I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I sing
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

--

"Internal".
lol. did i really make that up? tsk.

National Museum of Singapore today.
and in case you all are wondering, thats a DIFFERENT museum, from the SAM, the ACM, blah blah.
i realised we have even more than 10 museums in singapore!
(lets say you include stuff like the fort factory, etc.)
went w my sis, jasper, elaine.
and we were so delighted cause we all could enter free since our schools had already signed up w the heritage board. yeah. temporary high, i know. lol.

exhibitions were really good.
food, fashion exhibition, film & wayang, photography, indian, etc.
history of singapore was like a walk in thing, and you had your own device around your neck with earphones, so wherever you go, you just listened and key in numbers and stuff.
really advanced, fabulous (:
and i'm going to go there again!
since we didn't really have time to finish the whole history of singapore exhibition due to some.. hungry stomachs. LOL.

and we ate at AJISEN!
(:
all ate different food so that we can steal each other's. heh.
(:
but i think suki sushi would have been better :D

really funny watching all the poly and secondary people chionging for their studies at the cafe today.
rushing their holiday homework, or either finishing up studying for upcoming exams.
and i'm just stoning there, since really, i can't study, its the the END OF MY YEAR ALREADY.
so unless if i'm going to start studying the history of romantic music and all the scales of the book,
i'll prob be just practicing instruments. lol (:

but.
JIAYOU ALL :D
your goal may seem so far, your dream may seem so far, but you know what?
don't sell your dreams so sooonnnn! :D
1 year, 5 years, 10 years, time you shall take.
but effort, yes, you must make!

cafe (:
i really hope to open one!
but hear ye, if i don't manage to, jielong will! :D
haha.

i hear your disappointment.
don't give up. (:

Above All.

2008-06-17T13:07:04Z

Above All
Above all powers above all kings
Above all nature and all created things
Above all wisdom and all the ways of man
You were here before the world began

Above all kingdoms above all thrones
Above all wonders the world has ever known
Above all wealth and treasures of the earth
There's no way to measure what You're worth

Crucified laid behind the stone
You lived to die rejected and alone
Like a Rose trampled on the ground
You took the fall and thought of me
Above all

--

so anyway, i got a new devotional book which talks in praise & worship songs and stuff.
real cool.
this week, for the first page, chapter ONE, it's ABOVE ALL (:

(:

scream_city @ 2008-06-17T01:06:00

2008-06-16T17:21:04Z

i'm like slow by, dont know how many claps.
(some chinese verb thing, LOL)

anyway.
AMAZING RACE ON SATURDAY.
yeah, we practically ran the whole of singapore.
okay, maybe half.
had to do lots of really weird but fun tasks, so it was GREAT :D
YUP!
was in meiyan's group, since ade was game marshal, so yeah (:
was great, cause we were all really hyped up and going KALLANG and AH MEI 24/7.
heh.
dont know how, but we just managed to make a video.
seriously, i totally didn't plan it at all.
:/
so the big problem is..
THE FILE IS TOO BIG TO UPLOAD ONTO YOUTUBE.
so yeah, for the lucky few ones who managed to watch it, uh, good for you. LOL

learned a lot through this amazing race.
saw and met some stuff and people i havent really known, or met.
did lots. seen lots. heard lots. watched lots. learned lots.
downs there is, but ups are more important (:

MEIYAN WAS A FAB LEADER TOO (:
first time leading, and she did a great job!

sunday.
i dropped my cellphone on the floor.
like, really, HARD.
and so the great me thought nothing major had happened, until when we were giving vincent a surprise at the cafe where he was supposedly stopping by before going for some father's day dinner.
i was like, "okay, photo!"
and... happy new year.
my phone showed me some bizarre pattern.
on the camera, on video mode.
it was really bad, and i knew it.
i had just damaged by very own phone ):
...
anyone remember me saying that my LG phone can only last me at most 5 months because it wasn't a very good brand?
well.
ok, maybe it was highly due to my carelessness. LOL.

OH WELL.
that means no photos for the next one month or so, unless if i'm with my sister, then i'll use hers.
(:

TODAY.
monday.
i finally went for my 2nd-to-last-i-hope checkup with madeline at TTS, since she was having hers too.
my final MX injection was today!
and seriously, i think i was so used to it after the last few times, it felt like nothing.
(:
AND I SEE A RED DOT GROWING.
like FINALLY.
i'm a normal human being (:

went to campers' crusades!
was so hooked to all the books there, even madeline didn't want to leave :D
see, go there people!
its the building of the 'Just Follow Law' movie. heh, serious.
the books are really cheap and good (:
and the auntie behind the counter is very nice too! lol
dying to get more books there, but my budget is really low this month.
like, REALLY.
got a present for daddy and another for madeline so yeah (:

anyway the poly and secondary school students are prob having their last week of holidays this week.
so well, after that, its just me and a few other university/NAFA people who are having their days off.
namely, duh, lumei, laypeng, stef, blah blah.
(:
(:
(:
(:
/:
):

ok thats the true.
i really hate the holidays.
i'm being even more lazy now.
):

productive holiday is not really working.
I NEED TO REPLAN, RELOOK AT NEW PLACES TO GO TO.
and quickly get my pass to enter the night safari ten thousand times (:

recently i've also taken a liking to watching sports. not soccer yet though.
maybe its due the olympics 08? i dont know.
but apparently i was HOOKED, like REALLY HOOKED to the Aviva (badminton) Open.
as in, to the point which i was hiss at the umpire or shout out scores like " FIVE FOUR! FIVE FOUR! " wayyyyy before the umpire even attempted to figure out where the shuttlecock landed.
o__o
the denmark girl with a super long family name totally kicked butt.
i mean it.
she has STRATEGY. you can SEE IT.
and she had a REALLY sharp looking face which screams a little of meanness.
hongkong girl had ten thousand fans in the crowd i think.
but uh, she lost. LOL.

blink.
YOU.
aiyoh.

to MADELINE (:
i know i'll make a great principal.
or a zookeeper.
lol. talk about ego :D
yes, now i will start to think about my students having tucked out shirts and getting into gang fights.
HAHA :D
and thanks for the much needed inspiration and random thoughts!

life without Jesus, is like a donut.
like a donut, like a donut.
life without Jesus, is like a donut.
with a hole in the middle of your heart.

Cheryl and i were singing this all the way home.
the donut man!
yeah. we do have a childhood :D
ask us. we'll sing it to you (:

oh yes.
everyone in this world expects you to be something.
so why not be yourself?

have been out the last couple of days.
minus church days, its been almost playing everyday outside!
either with school friends, church friends, old time friends, anything!
gosh...
i will stay at home tomorrow.

(:

scream_city @ 2008-06-14T02:33:00

2008-06-13T18:40:45Z

few new students today.
and its like really, international thing.
one korean, one half-indonesian, one china, and one pure singaporean.
i dont know about scolding, but i didn't really scold them a lot, just taught them some new stuff, and went through the things victor told me to go through w them.
so yeah, was a lot of scales

sometimes, its stupid to let every sensitive thing get to you.
it really is.
thanks RANDY for a listening ear though most of the time you were like o_o
and for cheese fries and onion rings, its really worth the time for mindless ranting (:
plus i think its cool you give up so much for a saturday, cause God will give you so much more than that 4k!
LOL

caught a movie w a few of my cellgroup mates.
was quite a last minute thing, but oh well.
jasper, wilson, elaine, shengjia, randy, vincent, cheryl.
watched KungFu Panda, and seriously, even if wasn't some animated kiddish cartoon,
it would have been a great hit.
which it is luh, right now.
really funny, the whole cinema practically erupted into laughs every now and then.
the bear's cute, wu gui is cute, everything is.
i think what surprised me the most were the ones doing the voice overs.
i mean, angeline jolie? lucy liu? jackie chan?
woah.
talk about big production.

anyway.
i've used up too much money this month despite the thought that i would have used less during the holidays.
so either waiting for one of the other kids to pay up their fees or something.
also means that cheryl and i get to hit m'sia again next week, since we have really, more ringgit money now.
haha :D

WHICH IS BAD.
i mean the bad money handling bad.
cause as a sanguine, its part of my temperament to be like that.
so its time for me to add on to this weakness, so that i will spend my money wisely (:
by the way, finished the book's last chapter today.
have more to write down (:

amazing race tomorrow.
tad disappointed that my group cant play together cause ade's a game marshall.
so yeah (:
but i'll be in meiyan's team, so thats good too :D

perfect, doesn't mean right.
true.

france vs holland tonight for soccer.
i'm rooting for france (:
they may have old people, but hey!
i think their experience will count :D

scream_city @ 2008-06-13T02:30:00

2008-06-12T18:30:28Z

oh no.
i keep thinking about the baked potato with Bolognese sauce which cost almost like only 4 sing dollars from kenny rogers.
not singapore's, but JB'S.
singapore's outlet isn't really that great.

...
1/4 of roasted chicken drenched in gravy
3 sides, which i picked, mashed potato (GOOD!), potato salad (!!!!) and fruit salad
a raisin muffin
FOR 7 SING DOLLARS.

o_o

everyone, please sign up to go for the next city square's kenny roger's lunch tour.
(:

probably.
NEXT WEEK. O_O

scream_city @ 2008-06-13T00:48:00

2008-06-12T17:06:41Z

(:

FAHMI.
LOOK, I POSTED A PICTURE OF YOU & ME! (:

haha.
met him at the night market when i was with my sister and big stef.
SHOCK.
fahmi... he totally looked like he lost 2000000 pounds.
:/
don't be stress! don't worry, you'll do well for the test (:
yeah.
they're flying to Vienna in a couple of weeks for the competition ):
thats europe, again.
WHY IS EVERYONE COMPETING / PERFORMING IN EUROPE NOW ):
I'M SO JEALOUS. I WANT TO GO.
WHY AM I NOT IN NYP.
(okay, i was totally kidding, i love nafa!)
lol :D

anyway!
i was bored last night, and i decided that since i was finishing the Temperants book (one more chapter!), i would list down a few stuff to remind myself on what i have to pray for and stuff.
my cupboard!

thats my goals sheet before i hit my sweet 18.
(:
it has stuff like, where to eat, where to visit, etc.
yeah, will be adding more stuff to my cupboards! (:

TODAY.
thursday.

went to JB with my sis at like 3pm.
like who on earth goes to JB in the middle of the afternoon right?
ME AND HER LOR.
unique (:
HAHA.

spent quite some time on what to wear.
cause we wanted to look as "don't-rob-her" and "non-singaporean" as possible, but failed.
dad told me and cheryl to speak chinese all the way there,
but really, we dont have the accented malaysian chinese thingy.
and so we wore like slippers and stuff.
heh.

anyway, though i'm supposed to bring her,
she actually ended up bringing me around to the correct bus and stuff.
:/
i'm really bad at this, i can tell. haha (:
then so we ate a lot at City Square!
kenny rogers', secret receipe..
and we bought a lot of stuff too!
well.
I DID.
cheryl only bought like, a pair of shoes, cause she couldnt really find good shorts to buy.
i bought A LOT.
a shirt, a new pair of street shoes, 2 new devotion books, a cow clock which i'm intending to put on my piano, a new photo frame, badge, a mushroom lamp for one of my students who loveeee mushrooms, and some other stuff!
(:

OH.
we watched THE HAPPENING too.
and i tell you, ITS THE FEW BEST MOVIES I EVER SAW.
loved it.
but some people like my sister just dont get the show, so uh, yeah.
this show is good if you like thrillers and those 'independence day' that kind of movie.
(:

yeah.
was a tad worried that my sister would become some lost kid who doesn't even know whether she wants to go to some poly or abroad or whatever.
so i took out all the JCs / polys / private schools, whatever brochures and stuff i have and made her read it through.
:/

epitome of a scary monster freak who shops at random times?
me?
yeah right.
(:

i just realised i'm so freaking old.
i mean, as in, out of school old.
today i was in this christian bookshop and i wanted to buy this book on teenage stories written by teens for teens.
and i flip and read some.
and i went mostly like, "orh. gone through in primary 6" or even "orh, sec 3 have already. no more."
:/
when you're 18, you're officially no longer reallyyyy a pure teenager, but a young adult in case you all didn't know.
stop it with all the but nineteen got the "teen" word inside what! rubbish, LOL.
....
which means....

oh man.
:/
am i missing out on something here?
argh.
please say no.
God, please say no.
no no no no no.
6 more months.

scream_city @ 2008-06-10T02:06:00

2008-06-09T18:08:26Z

haha!
i just finished watching comedy nite.
think jack neo should go on making more of these shows (:

which reminds me..

ZJ: hey, you going to oboe later?
me: huh, what oboe?
ZJ: oboe lor!
me: huh, why i need to play the oboe?
ZJ: oboe! later!
me: -thinks- ... OH YOU MEAN OBOG! (pronounced OH-BOG)

ZJ is the one and only little cute boy zheng jie who plays the flute.
haha!

scream_city @ 2008-06-09T22:01:00

2008-06-09T14:08:38Z

dharmen's house yesterday to help him with some scouts stuff.
and he has cable! so we had the time of our lives with discovery channel and animal plant :D
not to mention.. he also has a very noisy but cute brother! LOL

halfway through, went down to watch a guzheng ensemble concert by CJC & keat hong CC with scholas
never watched a ensemble like this before, so it was rather interesting
was okay, but some of the soloists just totally put me to sleep

yup, then had dinner with scholas at Fish & Co.!
super a lot of teenagers there, yeah
had baked salmon, and it was really reallyyyy good :DDDD

all my hopes, all my dreams
God I lay them at Your feet

big visions, big dreams.
i dont know, some same i have the career look.
but uh, i dont know, maybe its JUST the face.
or maybe not.
(:

we can say what we wish our dream house or dream family or even dream holiday & dream vehicle is like,
but really.
its all up to Him.

imagination is still sweet.
heh.

TODAY.
dinner (:
cheryl cooked!
was the same old dishes, but its way better than having take outs.

(:
really like chilling out w my cellgroup mates, though we can be rather... crappy at some times o_o
LOL
:D
dum dee dum.

meiyan's blog, please go there!
http://coolenberry.livejournal.com

jielong just flew off this morning to hongkong!
becky just left today for church camp at malaysia!
and alice and the NAFA orchestra will be flying to germany in TWO days!
ah, everyone's going SOMEWHERE ):
...
its okay. i'm going to malaysia on thursday.
LOL.

thought sermon on saturday was really good and the pastor from the UK was awesome (:
and his little toddler son & daughter are way adorable too!
LABELS.
singaporeans don't have the cliques stuff as bad as america does.
i mean, usually, we'r like, "nice", "popular", "lamest person", "so funny person", "mr handsome", "the gorgeous babe", "the nerd", and stuff.
but a label is still a label.
i mean, thousands of people can put labels on you.
they can call you a nerd, a act-cute freak, an old fashioned person, an auntie, a popular person, or even that girl who is 'so hardworking'.
but are you going to let those labels determine who you are?

hmmm.
i am who i am.
because the great I Am says.. I am.

anyway i was just watching the news.
and li jiawei (the singapore table tennis player)'s coach said this (in chinese of course)
"if she keeps winning, then i wont be able to see anything, and its nothing.
but if she loses a match, then we can try to find out the mistake and then improve."
she won the game by the way.

funny how when sometimes we fail in something,
we rather choose to believe that we lost the whole game and thats life.
hmmm.
(:

then flicked through tv to the arts central.
and they were showing how the Red Hot Chilli Peppers practice and write songs and stuff.
was really cool, they really seemed to put a lot of hardwork into everything man o_o

Snow (Hey Oh)
Come to decide that the things that I tried were in my life just to get high on.
When I sit alone, come get a little known
But I need more than myself this time.
Step from the road to the sea to the sky, and I do believe that we rely on
When I lay it on, come get to play it on
All my life to sacrifice.

Hey oh... listen what I say oh
I got your hey oh, now listen what I say oh

When will I know that I really can't go
To the well once more - time to decide on.
Well it's killing me, when will I really see, all that I need to look inside.
Come to belive that I better not leave before I get my chance to ride,
Well it's killing me, what do I really need - all that I need to look inside.

Hey oh... listen what I say oh
Come back and hey oh, look at what I say oh

The more I see the less I know
The more I like to let it go - hey oh, woah...
Deep beneath the cover of another perfect wonder where it's so white as snow,
Finally divided by a word so undecided and there's nowhere to go;
Inbetween the cover of another perfect wonder and it's so white as snow,
Running through the field where all my tracks will be concealed and there's nowhere to go.

Ho!
Went to descend to ammend for a friend of the channels that had broken down.
Now you bring it up, I'm gonna ring it up - just to hear you sing it out.
Step from the road to the sea to the sky, and I do belive what we rely on,
When I lay it on, come get to play it on
All my life to sacrifice

Hey oh... listen what I say oh
I got your hey oh... listen what I say oh

The more I see, the less I know
The more I like to let it go - hey oh, woah...
Deep beneath the cover of another perfect wonder where it's so white as snow.
Finally divided by a word so undecided and there's nowhere to go
Inbetween the cover of another perfect wonder where it's so white as snow
Running through the field where all my tracks will be concealed and there's nowhere to go.

I said hey hey yeah oh yeah, tell my love now.
Hey hey yeah oh yeah, tell my love now.

Deep beneath the cover of another perfect wonder where it's so white as snow,
Finaly divided by a word so undecided and there's nowhere to go.
Deep beneath the cover of another perfect wonder where it's so white as snow
Running through the field where all my tracks will be concealed and there's nowhere to go.

I said hey oh yeah oh yeah... tell my love now
Hey yeah yeah... oh yeah.

--

oh yeah.
i have the PART TWO of the science centre trip with steph out.
its on youtube, so go to www.theblackcamera.blogspot.com
(:

MORE READING!
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D

scream_city @ 2008-06-06T23:37:00

2008-06-06T15:53:05Z

almost everyone in the world is a big fan of nature.
nature's beautiful clouds, beautiful mountains, those stuff which can only be found in good old Europe and the great New Zealand.
so most of time, our wishlist will have this stuff like, "i wish to visit NEW ZEALAND!" or something.
and to tell you the truth, i'm quite a sucker for that too.
i like good old mother nature, and i love those trees and mountains,
which then i will pout to myself and think, "why singapore don't have!"

so i was walking to my student's house today which was about 5 mins away, for lessons.
and i looked up, and behold!

this is good old singapore, a plain road, where lots of cars which "gives out" carbon monoxide ride on.
shows that my God is so amazing, that wherever i am, He can still show me His wonderful creations!
:D
just OPEN YOUR EYES.

after today's lesson, i dont know whether to conclude whether are morning lessons good.
cause the kids are awfully hyper, yeah
BUT, for some odd reason, they concentrate even better too.
maybe cause they'r not tired by schoolwork or something already.
hmmm

(:
i've been practicing being unselfish today!
and though its something which i'm doing on my part just only today for now,
i believe God can teach and show me even more ways how to be unselfish (:
cause You have bigger plans for me!

random:
i cant wait for mission trip!

met naomi at lot one today!
she was with her dad having dinner,
and so we'r meeting up prob next week for dinner or something :D
can't wait! miss her loads, and she has much longer hair nowwww!

so glad to see YOU growing in the Lord through tiny stuff (:
YOU know who you are!

i realised that as someone like me who likes to socialise a lot,
i might be able to make super a lot of friends and all,
but if i'm not able to give my time or comfort to someone who needs it at that time,
then i guess it really reflects what type of a friend i am.
and as much as i want to be friends with everyone,
i want to know that i'm able to really help people in my own little way,
just giving a listening ear, so that they know i care (:
I WANT TO BE QUICK TO LISTEN, SLOW TO SPEAK.
:D

send in almost 20 plus photos to be printed today.
get really for filling out my album even more! :D
woo!

hayati just told me she got a MACBOOK AIR.
OH-AM-GEE!
o_o

to who else?!
HEY YOU.
my God is bigger than what you think, than you ever imagine.
please, you can't smack us dead.
(:

my sister thinks i am super naive and at times, dense.
...
HOW CAN THAT BE?!
):

peeling my heart, the strips off one by one.
the real me, its just me.

the zoo & counterstrike fever

2008-06-05T19:33:23Z

typing this, going to sleep soon, have a long day tomorrow :D

zoo on wednesday!
went with andi, alice, becky, yuan bing, and her brother.
anyway.
yeah, it was great :D
we covered all the shows, though they was a lot of misreading in maps and running here and there.
yes, we are like, super on people :D
we walked the wrong way and ended up on the wrong end of the zoo for the wrong show venue.
but we still "GO GO GO!"
LOL :D

splash safari show!

i know, i looked REALLY weird pinning up one side of my hair, but it was warm!
and when you'r warm, you dont really care.

giant tortoise!
super big, and adorable!

komodo dragon, just stoning there.

feeding time for small tortoises and iguanas!
apparently when the food came, one of the tortoise took FOREVER to reach the food bowl,
since it was like at the other end of the enclosure and it had to rest a lot before it moved,
and andi was super pek chek by it.

cute wolf (:
smelly too...

one little thing i learned is that when you plan to go for a zoo outing,
then later go for your PS lesson or something, please plan like HOURS in between.
or better, none.
cause you'll be too exhausted for lessons, and you should allow time for interruptions like someone forgetting to bring house keys (my sister!)
met up with alice & becky (andi was asleep!) to eat dinner after the really wasted trip to kallang o_o
since becky was leaving for malaysia (church camp) on monday,
and alice was leaving for germany (NAFA orchestra) on wednesday,
we decided to eat something that they wouldn't really get to eat in those countries,
especially if they don't end up coming back...
LOL
:DD
ICHIBAN SUSHI!

yup (:

today!
thursday, cooked two pots of spaghetti sauce and a huge pot of penne pasta.
counter strike fever apparently has hit a lot of people in cellgroup.
so a number of them came over with laptops to battle it out today o_o
yeah, so some of them brought drinks and snacks so we just ate and play (:
and when it was like dinner time, we couldn't really finish the food,
so played the awesome one and only,
ZONG JI MI MA!
:D
HAHAHAH!

had a few chats with jasper, meiyan, joon ting & wilson after that at the balcony with apple & guava juice.
haha! the older people.
lots of stuff.
like on the malaysia education system, bungalows, the end times, future, band (joon ting was a percussionist in marsiling sec!) and.. more band!
(:
plus i like it that half the time we were guessing what another person was thinking.
yes we'r really lame. but uh.
funny.
:D

few rather obvious problems popping out here and there, especially at home.
don't really know what to do, but i rather believe in trusting in Him than thrashing it out relentlessly.
violence never solves anything, neither do broken plates and bad upfront confrontations.
feel rather constrain at times, tonight i already felt the "tightness" on the spot.
it doesn't feel good, but i hope it doesn't last long.

finished reading yet another rather deep chapter of the Spirit Controlled Temperaments.
in case you'r wondering why i'm taking forever to read it,
thats cause its like those type of book which you must think here and there after reading it?
yeah.
and i realised i'm really a very selfish sanguine person.
selfishness is really, the bottom line of our weaknesses in anything.

if i'm not selfish, this is what i would have done, considering the standards of the ten commandments which God told Moses to write down, not my own of course.
'if i'm unselfish towards God, i would humbly obey Him and obey Him only, not take His name in vain or make any other images, and keep the Lord's day rather than desecrate it for selfish purposes.
if i'm unselfish, i would honour my father and mother, i would not steal, or be so inconsiderate to others as to bear false witnesses against them or covet that which is of others.'

of course, i'm not trying to say that i steal or don't want to obey my parents,
but more in other terms.
like in being intolerate in what others desire or being insensitive to my peers.
or even in thinking of how and what i do will affect others.
so yeah (:
i think i'm going to put up this reminder stuff on my wall, lol :P

anyway its June!
so it means 6 months gone.
whether its put to good use or not, its still not too late!
so yeah, going to put up my little goals and stuff like that for the next 6 months.
of course, one of my big weaknesses is being rather weak willed.
so i want to let my unselfishness lead into me being self disciplined -_-"
cause if i start to think how my actions will affect others if i choose to do things "just because i feel like it" especially if its wrong, it will help a great deal.
(:
YEAH!
haha :DD

thats me in the chorus with the nafa orchestra!
i'm on the first row on the bottom (:
listen, we'r GOOD!

anyway, i missed my appointment and injection again.
and they called my dad, threatening to come down all the way to my house if i still forgot to go down for my check up.
LOL, funny.

oh yeah!
i sprained my right ankle the morning of the zoo trip.
and i was quite dumb, actually jumping to land on my right foot for those stone steps.
o_o
so it did hurt, but i didn't really care, continued hopping away. LOL
and yes, some of you may have known, i had stomach flu for the past few days.
its really bad, like you REALLYYYYY want to eat a donut for example, but the minute you hold it to your mouth or even look, you feel like vomitting o_O
so i ate only when the pain goes away (:
but aiyah, i still eat normally now, since nothing has happened for like days.
heh :p

and good news!
my room is cleaned.
like really, the floor is nice, the music books are placed nicely on the shelf.
can't say much for dusty cupboards though, LOL :D

GOODNIGHT!

oh Lord. save me.

scream_city @ 2008-06-03T02:45:00

2008-06-05T18:43:29Z

yesterday, i finished the whole Ben & Jerry's SMORES w my dad, in less than 24 hours.
today!
dad came back and was digging through some stuff.
and POP!
he took out a whole pint of Ben & Jerry's TURTLE SOUP flavor ice cream from the bag.
:/
and we ate again.

.... talk about addicting.

anyway! tomorrow i'm going to the zoo! (:
going to party this week man :D
as in, yeah, go out loads :DDD
thurs, prob the discovery center with steph.
friday, teaching from morning till late afternoon.

the really really bad part?
my room is still not cleaned.
dad says its like a refuge camp.
o___o
really meh?

okay.
i'm quite surprised, cause channel 8 is actually finally producing shows with GOOD plots and actors.
its like so long since there was really a good show?
(:
yay.

JUNE 15 IS FATHER'S DAY.
i dont know what to do i dont know what to do x____x
ahhhhh
:/

life with ben and jerry's.

2008-06-02T09:22:15Z

i realised how seriously dangerous ben and jerry's ice cream are.

i left the house at 3:02am this morning to the nearest esso station (which is right smack in the center of mine and big stef's house) to get myself a pint of ben and jerry's ice cream, SMORES.
:/
cause all i kept thinking was, MUST HAVE ICE CREAM.
call me crazy.
i promise, i won't do it again.

Joy unspeakable that won't go away
And just enough strength
To live for today
So I never have to worry
What tomorrow will bring
'Cause my faith is on solid rock
I am counting on God

i can't wait for saturday :D
oh why why why is it only monday ))))))))))):
people, be on time for sat man! the games for the next few thousands of years by yours truly is going to be as fab as ever :D
yeah.
and when i go to heaven, I'LL STILL BE YOUR GAMEMASTER!
hohohoho (:

probably going to find a day this week or the next to head down to campus crusades.
where's there's like THOUSANDS OF BOOKS.
seriously, i think the price and quantity and whatever there is more than Tecman.
yeah, fix a day with me, anyone, ok :D
for now, anyone up for discovery center with stef, laypeng and me?
prolly this week or next too (:

anyway.
i updated the blackcamera a little, so go check it out :D
www.theblackcamera.blogspot.com
yeah, uploaded all the videos from the task during games in radical conference (:

i've already finished half a pint of ice cream.
o__O

radical conference 08

2008-06-01T18:20:04Z

so you wanna change the world, what are you waiting for?
say you're gonna start right now, what are you waiting for?
it only takes one voice, so come on now and shout it out,
give a little more, what are you waiting for?

i just finished watching Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen on vcd.
i know, this is like my last year, or few months, being a teenager, cause when you're 18, its supposedly your first year of "young adulthood", when you take responsibilities and all.
but i'm not sure whether it applies to singapore, since we uh, don't run like that.
anyway, it was none of those whatever boy meets girl and stuff like that, but i still loved it loads.
for a two hour video on how far you would go to chase your dreams, i actually think its not crap from Lindsay Lohan for once.
hmmm, disney isn't so bad.

friday and saturday, what a blast.
radical conference 2008 (:
this year was totally fabulous, isn't it? like everytime.
pastor preston is good. i mean seriously, really, good.
in only a matter of preaching less than 30mins (after lots of jokes and even some mass dancing stuff with all the youth), he hit the very root which cause every problem in this world today.
my sermon book surprisingly, wasn't full of a page after page blow of every single thing the pastor said, but it was filled with pictures and drawings, lots of reminders to myself.

one of the sessions i remember, was on your relationship w God.
and duh, he was totally right on sitting on borrowed relationships.
its like, i was born in a christian family, blah, i'm even a 4th generation christian.
but guess what? my great-granddad's relationship with God, my grandparents, and even my parents' relationship with God will not get me anywhere.
thats true now.
i realised i used to pray only when i had a problem, i went to church because everyone in my family did.
talk about tradition, gees.
and now i realise how grateful i am to truly have my OWN relationship with God.
i mean, for anyone, God isn't going to let you into heaven because your dad was the greatest pastor in the history of whatever-ness, or because your grandmother saved 1000000 lives in some ulu country.
hm, the past 16 years before i got serious was just an empty hole.
i'm glad i got back on track (:

another one of the few sessions, mentioned, NO MORE.
funny how the bible says the most important thing is to love, and yet we go around and slander each other, when the very thing the bible says is that our mouth is like a sword, it contains death and life.
even for me, there are times when i didn't like this person, or someone spreaded this or that rumor, and i might just speak badly of that person, or just even worse, join in the gossip.
i thought for a while.
isn't it plain disgusting how the very mouth you use to tell someone that "i care for you" is the very mouth that went to someone and said "that person did a bad thing".
it doesn't even have to be the same person.
i guess its all about choices.
face it, whatever choices you make, there's a consequence.
so you just have to face it, whether its good or bad.

like for example, you did something really bad to your friend, something which caused division.
all you have got to do is to go up, and really apologise.
and please, which freaking teenager does not have a problem with "DONT DARE LAH!" and pride?
i have that problem sometimes too!
like when i say sorry to my friend or my parents, it can take me a few days even.
but coming from me, the longer you drag, the worse you feel, the guiltier you get.

the bible didn't say fight with the friend to make things better.
it sure didn't say spread bad things to make it better, or even think bad things.
but it did say to us to meet up with the friend to settle it out.
but really, most of the time, even i, just choose to not voice it out, and keep it to yourself, then tell another friend, and another, and another...
and guess what? you just made an enemy.
soon whenever you look at the person, or walk past him/her, these thoughts will fly through your mind.
funny hor.
that people can actually get angry with each other, say person A is angry with person B, and person A just chooses to tell a friend and get angry or whatever, and person B is still having the time of his life because he doesn't know a thing.
...
happy suffering alone, person A.

so at the end of this session, the whole bunch of us were told by pastor preston that if we had anybody whom we had spoken badly of, said bad things behind that person's back, or we wanted to seek for forgiveness, to go up to the person and do it.
and it was good to see us, youths, just going around telling people we were sorry for this and that and we wanted forgiveness.
you know what?
it doesn't mean that both of you have to feel sorry and become best friends and things go back to where it was all of a sudden to mean forgiveness.
all you have to do is just tell the person you'r sorry, and what you have done.
and you've done your part.
whether the person chooses to restore the relationship with you, thats on his/her part.
for now, you know you've done the best you can.

i want a hero.
i want to be a hero.
and a hero isn't just someone like superman or batman was superpowers.
a hero is someone who steps into your life even when your life is breaking down, and that hero chooses to stay there to help.

one thing was emphasized a lot during this 2 day conference.
that we aren't people who are losers, but we are choosers.
that though we cant change the way we were born and how our life was, but we can choose how it ends.
that everyone will hurt at some point of time, but not everyone will quit.

we absorb so much during conferences,
we absorb so much in church.
but how much do we go forth and apply and do?
i mean, i can tell you the bible says to love your enemies, but did i do it?
now there's a difference, between a living christian, and a dying one.
(:

okay, i dont want to be a dying christian :D

haha :DD
alright, kidding, that was a picture of like, half of our cellgroup when playing games today.
so they had to spell names.
loved the videos they took as part of the "task" :D
really saw a wild side of even the quietest person in cellgroup, LOL

oh yes!
its the first of june now (:
HAPPY JUNE HOLIDAYS!
going to have a blast this month, lots of things to do (:
and my list of "things to do before i'm 18!"
haha :D

I CAN'T WAIT TO HIT MY BIG 18 IN DECEMBER :D

oh yeah.
should be going to the zoo with alice, becky tan, some of them
anyone wants to come, DO TELL ME ASAP OK?
don't say i didn't invite you, cause i DID!
i just can't sms everyone, so i just tell people to spread the message (:

NIGHT. :D

shoe hunting w stef & dharmen.

2008-05-29T06:55:18Z

okay u know its 1am in the morning,
but i just had a bowl of dumpling soup and i'm aching to do crazy stuff.
like.. clean my room.
as in. CLEAN. you know, water, soap, blah blah.
O_O

i'll see.
food does weird stuff to me.

saw some youngsters (sec sch kidsi) playing basketball though its so late.
got reminded of my secondary school times when during the holiday periods or what so ever, we would hang out and stay up throughout the night in the park or downstairs just chatting or even anywhere else watching a movie, blah blah blah. and i want to do it NOW!
just seriously, stone at the park with a group and talk about how is life for each of us just for that one night.
but then the very depressing thought.
i may be having my 'summer holidays', but the POLY & JC STUDENTS ARE NOT.
so thats like 99% gone for the usual people.
(JC yeah, having june break, BUT, there're having exams after the holidays so everyone is too busy mugging now)
argh! ):

okay.
cut the crap, heh
TODAY (:
went out shoe-hunting w stef and dharmen.
putting up the main pictures only. other photos will be uploaded onto my online album when i'm free, prob at the end of june, cause i'll label it 'summer break 08', yup.

waiting for dharmen to come.
were at tanjong katong complex.
synwin violins.
they had like hundreds of violins/violas and cellos, double basses, even an ancient clavichord there!
super nice.

at city plaza.
stef wanted to buy some of those gladiator shoes, so yeah, we went around with her.
apparently, the shoe shops have like SO MANY shoes, so much more than what we have in the west i think.

dharmen showing off a boot.. which he wanted stef to try at first, just for the fun.

the shoes stef bought!

after even more shoe hunting, me and dharmen got tired.
so we tried these massage chairs!
and dharmen has NEVER been on a massage chair! so yeah... interesting (:
cause even before we started he was going on and on about "will this hurt or not?!"

http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v448/becky_gal/?action=view¤t=V280508_1412.flv
here's a link, watch dharmen on the massage chair for the first time!
taken on phone, so not so good quality.
anyway, for some weird reason i cant put it here, cause it wont appear, so yeah, you all have to click on the link!

got bored later again, and wandered off with dharmen to look at bags and stuff.

had dinner at arnold's chicken!

half a spring chicken with fries and coleslaw for each for us.
for only $5.20!
cheaper than your KFC MEAL.
and seriously, it tastes MUCH better than KFC.
the chicken is actually.. CHICKEN.
and the fries, seriously, i never thought i would say this, not being a big fair of fries, but i love it!
and the amazing coleslaw too (:

for three people!
with onion rings and drink! o__o
(:

chatting w andi on msn now.
cause we'r totally bored.
and hungry.
LOL

NIGHTS (:

p/s
anyone can download or gave me some software for flash maker or photoshop?
will love you all to death if you can.
(:

Lord. tell me the many things which You have in store for me.
especially, those which I had not asked of.
that i will be sensitive to You.
and hear what You have to say.

scream_city @ 2008-05-28T00:37:00

2008-05-27T17:02:44Z

WWJD?
ask.

i had a good practice today. (:
got some nice stuff out, and hopefully got rid some really bad habits.
talked to mr kamar when i was visiting regent today!
haven't spoken to him for so long!
apparently he still thought that i was still in that state which i deserted ngee ann poly for SP.
LOL

in everything I do, let Your will be done.
not mine.

scream_city @ 2008-05-26T22:46:00

2008-05-26T14:52:24Z

sunday - JAYZEE CAFE
jasper did a good job with my cheese baked rice, though i've really got to admit, too much pepper.
and thats cheryl poking at jielong's dubious looking spaghetti!
but ah, its good too (:
only that pasta is getting way hard nowadays.
:/

officially DAY ONE of holidays for all secondary kiddos.
meiyan was sick!
so me and cheryl (after an hour of passionate singing -.-") went with her to the polyclinic.
superrrrr long for her.
anyway, we were so broke (seriously, i have like only 20bucks left for the week) that we wandered around food junction looking for the cheapest but most appealing-to-taste food.

GET WELL SOON BABE :D
AND HAVE FUN & ALL THE BEST FOR THE THIRTY-SEVEN (i know, like, WHAT ON EARTH right?!) MATCHES TOMORROW!

food fair at expo's last day tomorrow.
seriously, i WANT TO GO, food is freak cheap there.
so anyone up tomorrow?
TEXT ME AH :D

scream_city @ 2008-05-25T23:45:00

2008-05-25T16:06:52Z

Indescribable
by Chris Tomlin

From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea
Creation's revealing Your majesty
From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring
Every creature unique in the song that it sings
All exclaiming

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
Incomparable, unchangeable
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same
You are amazing God
You are amazing God

Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow
Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom

--

sang this during service yesterday.
was a new song to us, but strangely, i sang it, and it felt like i had done so for millions of years.
asked rayhoe whether he thought so too, and he agreed!
hmm.
think its the chord direction for one, but on the other..
(:

so meaningful!
thats right, God is INDESCRIBABLE.

(:

almost forgot.
we were celebrating jackkee's bday yesterday after church dinner, so yeah.
some photos!

dinner..

surprise!
switched off the lights when he went to throw rubbish, so yeah (:

praying

cut!

anyway, have been to Buddy Hoagies for like two times in a row already.
friday night, and saturday night.
and on both nights, was to eat a BAKED POTATO.
plus to play the ever exciting, DREAM HOUSE game.
LOL.
okay, we were like, forever the loudest people.

--

just for the bonus!
mine and steph's head with, or rather, ON!, one of the science exhibits!

scream_city @ 2008-05-25T14:09:00

2008-05-25T06:06:53Z

went to the science center with big stef on friday.
having our summer holidays away from NAFA now, so nothing much to do.
decided at like, 3am plus to go to the science center in 6 hour's time.
LOL (:

anyway, did i mention?
the science center is just WAY advance now.
i mean, all the plane exhibits, those stuff are all gone.
replaced by the newer one called 'Space', and seriously, its WAY WAY WAY high tech.
demonstrated through our video, which i might just put up if i have the time,
the whole thing about us enjoying it there.
not a lot of people other than lots of school children running about, so yeah, pretty good (:

church today was.. -no words can express-
haha, i'm just picking up from pastor daniel.
he just showed how huge our whole universe is!
so amazinggggg! (in his words, huge-r!)
and seriously, fasting works wonders.
i watched a few people who have literally disappeared from church months or years ago reappear all of a sudden.
all today.
o__o
gosh.

tomorrow's going to be a good day!
going to be my 'alone' day again!
gonna hit the jayzee cafe with my sis and some others.
catching up on even more of my reading (:

scream.
STOP!

scream_city @ 2008-05-22T16:05:00

2008-05-22T08:05:53Z

okayyy
i seriously need to plan a schedule for what i'm actually going to do from now till like, july.
if not i'll either wake up early realising i'm late for something which i have to do the whole day,
or wake up at like, 4pm in the evening, thinking i have nothing to do.
screwed! cannot cannot :/

i want a chocolate chip frapp.
i want suki sushi.
i want the laze at some cafe and stone for the whole evening...

OKAY.
i just decided if i'm up for nothing tonight, i shall go down and stone at the nearest starbucks,
to plan my schedule and do some light reading w cheezels!
ahhhh :D

GOODBYE!

scream_city @ 2008-05-22T00:23:00

2008-05-21T16:22:39Z

completely
The secret of life is letting go
The secret of love is letting it show
In all that I do
In all that I say
Right here in this moment

The power of prayer is in a humble cry
The power of change is in giving my life
And laying it down
Down at your feet
Right here in this moment

chorus:
Take my heart
Take my soul
I surrender everything to your control
And let all that is within me lift up to you and say
I am yours and yours alone
Completely

This journey of life is a search for truth
This journey of faith is following you
Every step of the way
Through the joy and the pain
Right here in this moment

Right here, right now, and for the rest of my life
Hear me say

I am yours and yours alone
Completely

scream_city @ 2008-05-21T23:14:00

2008-05-21T15:30:10Z

has been reading Spirit-Controlled Temperament, even till now.
am at the last few chapters.
Tim LaHaye, FANTASTIC writer i tell you (:

read on depression & fear today.
didn't realise there was so many different expressions of anger!
in fact, there's SIXTEEN of it.
did you know that gossip and sarcasm are part of the 16 too?
way cool. (:

anyway, i read and realised how important it is to have faith.
lack of fear brings you in 2 directions.
one, of the past.
another, of the future.

fear of the past.
just some stuff i read.
have you committed a really bad sin like, i dont know, you stole something from your friend maybe 5 years ago?
and you have confessed your sin but you'r really not sure whether you'r forgiven or not?

you can..
1) read bibles verses, internalise it, BELIEVE it, don't read it over and over again.
then
2) instead of confessing that sin which you have done that 5 years ago over and over 1000 times, confess it that once, and whenever you remember it again, don't go back into that cycle and "wish that i didn't commit that sin, oh Lord, forgive me again for the 1000th time!"
instead, remember,
confess once, THANK God 999 times for having forgiven you!
thats an act of faith that you know that you'v already been forgiven!
geez.
jesus must be looking down from above thinking,
"i've already forgiven you. why are you getting back in the same cycle man?"

SO COOL RIGHT (:

next.
fear of the future.
lack of faith will cause you to think, "what will i do in the future? will i make money? will i have a wife/husband?"
blah blah blah blah.
cause if the devil can't get you to go back into the past, he'll get you to worry about the future!
(which is ironic, cause he doesn't know anything about the future, so why let him get to you?)
WHY?

because if you worry about the future, you can't fully enjoy the riches of God's blessings TODAY.
people who enjoy life are not 'living tomorrow' or worrying about yesterday, they are living out TODAY!

"Satan tries to crush our spirit by getting us to bear tomorrow's problems with only today's grace."

think about it, if you want to give God all you have right NOW, guess what?
all you have NOW is today.
right here, right now.
so give Him your today, today!
(ok, i sound like an advertisement...)

(:
talks to me so much about whats been happening these few days.
why am i worrying about tomorrow? or a few months down the road? or years?
argh.

NIGHT NIGHT (:

scream_city @ 2008-05-21T16:08:00

2008-05-21T08:07:22Z

i hate J.S Bach ):
okay i don't really mean it, but..

):
ok i really don't like the really mono-ic pieces.

pictures for the Vesak day outing at settlers cafe and then dinner at my house!
http://screamcity.myphotoalbum.com
under church -> vesak day
(:

i bought 11 pairs of adorable socks, for me myself and me only!
new pencilcase, new stationary, new sneakers!
and my sneakers are a sexy baby bright blue (:

weather hasn't been very forgiving to good old singapore.
i switch on the fans to full blast and i still feel like heat is engulfing me still.
dad says its yet to be the hottest month yet.
so get ready for even more heat.
plus my aircon's still down o__o
..
so its times like these when i wished it was still the raining season.
aww, who am i kidding? lol